Half the things I say

Half the things I say

We're on the phone,
Fighting 'bout the reasons why
We are like this every night.
Wanting some damn answers.

I'm sensitive to change in tones;
Over analysis every word,
Insecure 'bout everything
Do you know what I mean?

Half the things I say
Out of anger, out of grief
Are lies, untruthful to
All that I believe.

I crave your understanding
Why I say things I regret
But mean every word
When I'm enraged.

Gentle tones are must;
I want to feel special
Like a child to be spoilt
With love and care.

Half the things I say
Are for your sake only.
It pains me more than it does
You. Please understand.

Please understand that
Nothing is truthful or
What I mean about
Half the things I say.